Wonderfully Made

Sometimes we do not let people in to our hearts and life so they can get to know us completely. We are afraid they will not like us or find something in us they will not like.

The Song Real Me by Natalie Grant explains this.

The Real Me”

Foolish heart looks like we’re here again
Same old game of plastic smile
Don’t let anybody in
Hiding my heartache, will this glass house break
How much will they take before I’m empty
Do I let it show, does anybody know?

[Chorus:]
But you see the real me
Hiding in my skin, broken from within
Unveil me completely
I’m loosening my grasp
There’s no need to mask my frailty
Cause you see the real me
Painted on, life is behind a mask
Self-inflicted circus clown
I’m tired of the song and dance
Living a charade, always on parade
What a mess I’ve made of my existence
But you love me even now
And still I see somehow
But you see the real me
Hiding in my skin, broken from within
Unveil me completely
I’m loosening my grasp
There’s no need to mask my frailty
Cause you see the real me
Wonderful, beautiful is what you see
When you look at me
You’re turning the tattered fabric of my life into
A perfect tapestry
I just wanna be me
But you see the real me
Hiding in my skin, broken from within
Unveil me completely
I’m loosening my grasp
There’s no need to mask my frailty
Cause you see the real me
And you love me just as I am
Wonderful, beautiful is what you see
When you look at me

Opening up my heart again is scarey …but like all recovery stories (well at least I hope) at some point your heart is ready to let love in. Trusting again. Taking another step out in faith that God is close by even if I fail at it.

Because I am wonderfully made, I should remember that the Lord designed my parts. He makes no mistakes on any of us. God in his creation chamber gave you brown eyes or blue eyes, and curly or straight hair, short or tall, blonde, red, brown or black hair.

I have always loved blue eyes and wished that I had them. My mother had the most beautiful blue eyes …almost piercing. She could use those eyes to let me know real quick that I had better get back on track and it usually took just a flash of those eyes to do that. I have seen the most amazing blue eyes on other people and again, all I could wish was ‘why had I not received my Mother’s blue eyes?’. But just like I have accepted that I have brown hair and brown eyes, I also accept that my heart may not be like someone’s else and that’s okay. God created me the way I am by his design. Why should I covet something else? Why should I not be satisfied in who he made me to be? I know part of this is because there have been years of putdowns and then self putdowns. I have had such negative self talk for so long. I may not be 6 feet tall or model like. I may not be a tiny girl, wearing a size two dress, but I am who God designed me to be.

Yes, I believe God wants us to take care of who he created us to be and some of us, like myself are slow learners. I get it now. I can be okay to be the real me. I can be okay, to open my heart and if I should fall flat on my face the first time, or 100th time, tt is okay. I can just pick myself back up and try again should I fall.

What I have learned is that a heart closed to love is like wearing the steel armor on the one that I always felt would appear riding up on a white steed. What I’ve figured out is that I was the one inside the metal and I am now taking the armor off. It is scarey to think that I will be exposed again possibly to hurt and vulnerable, yet if I do not try, I will be missing out on others getting to know the real me. I will be missing out on getting to know the real them!

Are you ready to take a chance on getting to know the real people in your life and the real you? I hope you are….So I say – Here I am!

Thank you Lord for creating me just as I am and help others to know they are who they are for a reason also. I pray they, as I am, learn to love themselves and as we do, that we remember that we are Divinely made! We wear our own unique label – Designed by God!

While taking the armor off, I will be pressing on….

 

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9 thoughts on “Wonderfully Made

  1. I love the authenticity๐Ÿ’› Letting all the walls down around the heart has been a learning process for me. Learning that it is ok to have boundaries. We are fearfully and wonderfully made to be just what God needs us to be! Press on!๐Ÿ’›

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  2. I love the “we have a unique label – Designed by God.” So true! Your website is beautiful and I love that you are sharing from deep within. I am praying for you as you press on. I have walked with my mom through two journeys with cancer, and so I know that journey well. Thanks again for visitng my site, Living for One.
    Kelli

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  3. I made a decision that I would be just that (real) with this blog. I will not paint it all as roses and smooth sailing as that certainly has not been my life, however saying that, I know that I am blessed. I have been blessed with wonderful people that God has placed all around me and I call them ‘angels’ because I believe He appoints them even if they do not realize it.

    Letting the walls fall down around my heart has been harder than I ever imagined. In fact I didn’t even realize I was so walled off until the wilderness experience when separated from my now ex. I have always loved people and it has been so difficult to learn that I had so much work to do to unwind the vines that abandonment and put downs had wound around me.The fear as I see it now was my first indication but as fear works, it isolates and paralyzes. I allowed that to rule me for way too long. I am honestly still working my way through it but I am willing to fly or fall for the first time in a very long while.

    I do know that boundaries are important. That was something admittedly I did not have in place and again, another lesson learned while in the wilderness. Thank you as always for your sharing here. You are very appreciated. Have a blessed evening!

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  4. Kelli first and foremost – thank you for reading and sharing here. It really does mean a great deal to me.

    As has been my goal here to share what I learn along the way. I believe God reveals himself by experience and through Revelations and Confirmations. I am amazed at what He shows me on a regular basis.

    What I’ve learned also in the rebuilding after abuse and scars from cancer treatment, that I may not be yet who I would like to be but I am so thankful God loves me as I am and when I think of how he designed not only my path in life but also my’ holy temple’ and realize God does not make mistakes, and that not only are we works of art…but our lives are masterpieces by His design, how could that not change my outlook…finally.

    Again, this is the reason I feel so strongly (he may have placed that passion there) that we share our individual stories, not just the happy experiences but our struggles as well. I believe it has been part of my recovery and God placed the idea on my heart and thankfully the ‘gift of many words’. ๐Ÿ™‚

    Thank you for your kind words about the blog and I so appreciate your prayers. I’m so sorry to hear about your having your own experiences with cancer in your family. I know in my heart that as my children did for me, you were her shining light through the journey during treatment whether you realized it or not and I hope you do know that. My children were my reason for getting out of bed every day, just to see their shining faces helped me to push on….and now I have rephrased it to ‘pressing on’! ๐Ÿ™‚

    Have a blessed evening and I will be stopping by your site again.

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  5. Love this posting and the song! I can totally relate to hiding behind a metal shield so that we will not get hurt again. So many of us do that… but God has a plan for each of us. We just need to trust Him. He knows “the real me” in each of us and made us just the way we are for His purposes… Thanks for sharing.

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