She Never Even Knew She Had A Choice

I found a song today – right before I begin my new blog and after listening to Broken girl by Matthew West.

I was riding in the car and heard the song Stupid Boy. Now I am not a big fan of the word ‘stupid’ but as I listened, as it was after all my daughters’ car, quite a few of the lyrics jumped out of the radio at me: Note the lyrics in bold and in blue and red….

Stupid Boy/Keith Urban

Well, she was precious like a flower
She grew wild, wild but innocent
A perfect prayer in a desperate hour
She was everything beautiful and differentStupid boy, you can’t fence that in
Stupid boy, it’s like holding back the wind

She laid her heart and soul right in your hands

And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans

She never even knew she had a choice and that’s what happens

When the only voice she hears is telling her she can’t

Stupid boy, stupid boy
Oh

So what made you think you could take a life
And just push it push it around
I guess to build yourself up so high
You had to take her and break her down

She laid her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
She never even knew she had a choice and that’s what happens
When the only voice she hears is telling her she can’t
You stupid boy

Oh, you always had to be right but now you’ve lost
The only thing that ever made you feel alive
Yeah, yeah

Well, she laid her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
Yes, you did
She never even knew she had a choice and that’s what happens
When the only voice she hears is telling her she can‘t

You stupid boy, oh, I’m the same old
Same old stupid boy

It took awhile for her to figure out she could run
But when she did, she was long gone, long gone

Ah, she’s gone, she’s long gone.
Yes, she’s gone
Nobody’s ever gonna love me like she loved me
And she loved me, she loved me
God please, just let her know
I’m sorry, I’m sorry
I’m sorry, I’m sorry
Baby, yeah, I’m down on my knees
She’s never coming back to me
I remember being spontaneous and a bright eyed girl. I remember thinking I had the world by the tail. I remember staying – tied to the pain for so many years thinking I didn’t have a choice but to endure. I dug my heels in and decided to persevere, each day – the words chipped a new piece away from who I used to be.

I’ve always wanted to ask that question -“what made you think you could take a life, my life and push it around, and hold me down?”

I never knew until I got up from the floor to leave, how broken I was – not right then did it really sink in, but in the 3 years after – when the light began to shine again ever so slowly, when everyone thought I was just being mean.
If they only knew how I longed to go back to who I had been before. I wanted the bright eyed girl of wonder..but his words cut through me and slashed my heart.
I am so glad that my guardian angels sent by Father God were on the job and on the mark and picked me back  up and whispered that if I was going to make it, I had to go …..now…
To those who feel they are worthless from anothers words and actions…I am living proof that there is hope. I still have the scars. I wear them for all to see now. I am not ashamed. I  like YOU, have a right to live a life of love and peace and not of fear.
I have a friend who has a saying – “you can’t fix stupid, not even with duct tape.”

I say – but “you can piece by piece fix broken”…

She did have a choice after all….

Please click on the link below to listen to another song about Broken…..

Broken-Lindsay Hahn

 

 

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6 thoughts on “She Never Even Knew She Had A Choice

    1. Thanks for this as well secretangel. It is amazing how God works. I’ve always felt there was hope on the other side waiting for me….and I hope this touches someone through my journey…that every day I learn something new about this journey…Our stories are meant to be shared. The experiences we have and pass through can help others to walk through the similar or same …I truly believe that is how we can serve others through our stories…and not just our story but how GOD moved through it….and made a change in our lives….Yes, I hope to have the blog up and running soon. It is a vision from a blog I actually had years ago – set on Youtube. (a forum). Life took a really hard left turn and I left it behind.. but the idea came back recently to try something a bit different…yet on the same premise…again..HIS IDEA! 🙂 Great….I will announce when it when I have it going…thanks so much for your support! God bless you…

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